Hey u so today its been 5 days since your send off and it was beautiful Jay it really was you would've loved it, so many people came to show there respects. I really thought that after saying good bye things would become easier but it appears to be getting more difficult each day me and our beautiful babies are waking without you here the weeks leading upto your passing were incredible the days in days out ans movie eves that well never forget jacob I miss you so so much my best friend my baby daddy my soul mate ❤ ill love you forever and ever your an incredible person and I'm going to make sure the girls know it too we all miss you like crazy, brodie thinks your an angel in an airplane. She let a balloon go a few days ago and told me it's gone to be with daddy please if your around please come make your presents known :) miss and love you always sleep tight puppa bear 🐻 love mumma bear 🐻 and the babies xxxxx

From the times leash used to call me and I used to respond with what has he done now 🙄😂 to the getting you out of trouble at Tesco, to always keeping an eye on you, for all the years I watched you grow ❤ you will forever be the cheeky brother arguing with his sisters while I tried not to laugh at how funny you were being, I can't believe I'm having to say goodbye today, I am so so sorry. I know it's not enough and that makes it harder 💔

These last 4 weeks have been so tough, I can't imagine the pain your family & Ashley must feel. I only had the pleasure of knowing you for the last 5 years I'm just glad I got to know you at all. From the first time I met you with Ste you were always the kindest and most polite lad, we formed a good friendship between us all and I have so many memories of amazing times. BBQS, parties, firework shows, Thorpe Park, kfc, xbox nights with farming simulator 🤣 the list goes on. I've really struggled to believe you're gone the last few weeks, I know the last time we spoke we weren't on the best terms but it doesn't stop the pain this has caused 😢 You were such a good friend and Maddison adored you too! Sleep tight J xx